Wednesday, December 27, 2006

The Princess Test

Fairy tales remind me of those commercials for prescription medications. With the promise of a more fulfilling life, they ought to come with a warning of potentially serious side effects. With that in mind, The Princess Test, Gail Carson Levine's humorous and engaging take on the old fairy tale The Princess and the Pea, has left me torn between delight and disappointment.

The delight: Levine writes with a clever voice that engages the reader with tender affection for the characters. Levine's craft is delightful.

The disappointment: Perhaps my feminist views take this tale too seriously; however, it's the fairy tale genre and its assumptions about the roles of men and women that bother me. Although Prince Nicholas knows next to nothing about the beautiful, simple, and essentially helpless Lorelei, he is convinced that she is the woman of his dreams. Lorelei is a naïve little girl in a young woman's body, and because it is a fairy tale, the reader to lured into wanting to see her and the prince live happily ever after before she ever learns how to be an adult. So, why has this genre endured after hundreds of years? Perhaps human nature simply wants to believe that life, love and happiness are black and white.

Now that I've registered my cynical complaint, I must add that I grew up loving fairy tales and the romantic delusional expectations they set; and somehow I survived thanks to my pragmatic parents. Would I read more of Levine's works? Absolutely. I would recommend this book to our daughters and nieces, but not without a healthy dose of modeling and talk about the true reality of love and relationships.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Writing Magic

I'm not sure why exactly, but I picked up a copy of Gail Carson Levine's Writing Magic: Creating Stories that Fly at the school book fair in October. I've never read Ella Enchanted or any of Levine's other popular modern takes on traditional fairy tales. Maybe it was that the English teacher in me wanted to take in the advice of a professional writer. Perhaps I was lured with my own fantasy of one day writing a book. Whatever reason, this how-to-write text has charmed me.

Though the audience for Writing Magic is kids who read and enjoy Levine's work, this book can be equally useful for adults who want to have fun imagining and writing. Each chapter concisely addresses a different topic valuable to the writer's craft and gives the reader a variety of suggestions to start writing immediately. That Levine discusses her own process in crafting her published works has also inspired me to become better acquainted with the magic that has made her a beloved author among children of all ages.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

New Moon

I have a confession to make, and I am not sure whether it is laughable or pitiful. I have never read Romeo and Juliet. Sure, I feel the need to excuse myself from this referential faux pas by assuring the reader that indeed I have read roughly a dozen other requisite works by Shakespeare, but understanding Shakespeare’s timeless tale about love matters when reading Stephanie Meyer’s New Moon, the sequel to Twilight. After all, Meyer’s is explicit about the connection.

That said, I enjoyed this preternatural romance. Why? First, Meyer gives Bella Swan such a strong love-torn voice that I wish she could have both the vampire and the werewolf. And despite my woeful lack of Shakespearean trivia in this case, I am shameless to admit that in the 1990s I did gobble up the tales about the vampire Lestat by Anne Rice. That was enough literary reference to give me something to chew on. Finally, my most important personal motivation to quickly feast on New Moon is the anticipation that a half a dozen love-struck thirteen year-old girls are dying to discuss it with me as soon as we return from the Thanksgiving holiday. There is something gratifying about being among a community of young readers who are so hungry to share.

New Moon is adolescent literature, and not just because the heroine is a teenager. Truthfully, Meyer’s novel lacks some depth, and despite Meyer’s adroit skill of crafting a romantic reader’s purpose for continuing on, resolutions to Bella’s problems are too swiftly and neatly resolved. I also cannot help but to compare Edward to Lestat and lament that Edward’s inner angst about what kind of creature he is is not more thoroughly developed. The reader is not afforded the opportunity to deeply feel the agony that must lie in Edward’s conscience, what with the fact that he obviously must crave Bella on many levels. It doesn’t matter that Edward and his family are the equivalent to vampire vegetarians. It would be more gratifying if the reader could more truly feel from Edward either the void of damnation or the his sense of redemption of the soul.

These shortcomings are, however, easy to overlook, for Meyer’s does a fine job of building reader anticipation to continue on with the sequel. Right now, I long to know if and how . . . and what about . . . Oh, I am tempted to give away too much! That I crave to know more about what happens to the characters is the hallmark of a mighty fine read. I am only sorry that I have to wait until next year when Eclipse is available before I can follow up on the love story of Bella and Edward.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Myself as a young reader

I enjoyed this meme over at Lotus Reads, and thought I ought to give it a whirl. What a great reflective exercise!

1. How old were you when you learned to read and who taught you?

I don't remember the first time I read. What I do recall is lying across my parent's blue bedspread, one leg crossed over the other, my father and I reading The Real Mother Goose together. Actually, I probably remember this only because my mother has a picture of this moment stuffed away in a drawer somewhere. As for my earliest school days, I remember reading the basals about Dick and Jane. I never struggled. I don't remember learning how to sound out words. Reading came very naturally to me when I was young.

2. Did you own any books as a child? If so, what’s the first one that you remember owning? If not, do you recall any of the first titles that you borrowed from the library?

My parents were bibliophiles, and they made many titles available to me. I think that I owned just about everything written by Dr. Seuss. Put Me in the Zoo and Green Eggs and Ham were my favorites. As I grew older, my mother would buy me titles from The Bobbsey Twins series, as well as many from The Boxcar Children series. I enjoyed reading mysteries, and those titles taught me how to make predictions while I read. Funny thing, however, is that I have no recollection of ever reading anything from the popular Nancy Drew series!

3. What’s the first book that you bought with your own money?

When I was in the fourth grade, I remember pouring over the Scholastic Book Order forms Miss Singleton would pass out at school. Scholastic books were cheap, anywhere from fifty cents to two dollars, so I saved up and bought many. I cannot recall which I purchased first: Charlotte's Web, Sounder or Misty of Chincoteague. I loved stories with animals, and my sister and I would often re-live these stories when we played together.

4. Were you a re-reader as a child? If so, which book did you re-read most often?

I was definitely a re-reader. I remember staying up very late at night crying every time Old Yeller was shot and each time Wilber begged Charlotte not to die. I remember my fascination as I pondered Karana's survival in Island of the Blue Dolphins. If I had to guess which book I re-read most often, I would say it was Where the Red Fern Grows. Knowing where and why the red fern grew fascinated me. I think it must have been my earliest realization that literature could present the reader with symbolism.

5. What’s the first adult book that captured your interest and how old were you when you read it?

Saddly, I have no recollection of ever reading older YA literature aside from -- and please don't laugh -- Archie comic books! Mr. Seeke was my English teacher in the eighth, ninth and tenth grades. He loved Hemmingway and Steinbeck. I remember the hook I felt while reading The Pearl. I think it was the description of the way of life for the poor in Mexico and the bad luck behind the pearl that grabbed me. I could vividly visualize the scorpion making its way toward Coyotito, and I felt a strong sense of injustice as Kino and Juana's lives fell apart.

6. Are there children’s books that you passed by as a child that you have learned to love as an adult? Which ones?

Though I never read her tales as a child, as an adult I fell in love with all of the books in Mrs. Piggle-Wiggle series. I don't know how we acquired our first copy, but my younger son thought long and hard about her "radish cure," which cleverly convinced a dirty boy that it was important to take baths. I am now the parent of young adults, but even after all those years I think about Mr. Piggle Wiggle every time I catch myself with a touch of "interupter-itis"!

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Twilight

It was two average thirteen year-olds, Nicole and Megan who introduced to Twilight by Stephanie Meyer. As I walked through the school cafeteria one day, I passed by their table, the table I like to call The Good Books Group, for the eight or nine girls who sit there seem to always have their latest novels close at hand as they eat lunch, connect and share.

This is the best book ever! Nicole proclaimed. Her eyes glazed over with the same pure revelry of a chocolate sugar high, she recounted how desperately she wanted to be Bella, the narrator of Meyer’s vampire fantasy. For her, Twilight was not just good, it was sweet mind-candy.

I ready the whole thing this weekend! Megan impressed me, for the book I held in my hands was almost 500 hundred pages long.

I finally picked up my own copy yesterday afternoon. Barely a hundred fifty pages into this tasty tome, I can see that Meyer’s debut novel is filled with many appetizing adolescent girl elements.

Seventeen year-old Bella, though neither athletic nor graceful, is beautifully pale, intelligent and observant. As a loving gesture to allow her mother to spend more time on the road with her professional athlete stepfather, Bella elects to move from warm, sunny Phoenix to a chronically dreary town in northern Washington where her quiet and emotionally distant father is the town sheriff. In some ways, Bella is a parent to both of her parents, thus making her a strong character despite her own self-doubts. Bella is also appealing because, despite her akward self-esteem, the boys in her new, tiny school stumble over each other to win her affection. However, there is only one boy, Edward Cullen, who intrigues her. Edward, as it turns out, is a vampire whose conscience waffles between protecting her from his own treacherous nature and his desire to be with her. Bella responds with teenage confusion and worry also as she hungers to understand what it is that makes Edward different, something that the other members in the community are not able to pick up on.

So far, Twilight is filled with mystery and sexual tension. I suspect that the next course will also serve up danger and suspense. Like Nicole and Megan, I will probably gobble it up and hunger for more.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Call for contributors

It seems to me that a blog about reading would benefit from multiple contributors. If you are interested in becoming a member, now's your chance.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Veronika Decides to Die

Even though I've neglected posting, I've been quite busy reading. This is the latest resident on my night stand.

Once again Paulo Coelho explores the potential personal fulfillment that each person has within them. Veronika is a young Slovenia woman who decides to commit suicide. She initially fails, however, and finds herself in an insane asylum where she will stay until the heart-damaging effects of her overdose do her in. As she waits for death, she becomes more reflective about herself.

At one point, she asks the doctor in charge of her case to let her leave the asylum to live out her final day. She says
"I want to leave here so that I can die outside. I need to visit Ljubjana castle. It's always been there, and I've never even had the curiosity to go and see it at close range. I need to talk to the woman who sells chestnuts in winter and flowers in the spring. We passed each other so often, and I never once asked her how she was. And I want to go out without a jacket and walk in the snow. I want to find out what extreme cold feels like, I, who always so well wrapped up, so afraid of catching a cold.

"In short, Dr. Igor, I want to feel the rain on my face, to smile at any man I feel attracted to, to accept all the coffees men might buy more me. I want to kiss my mother, tell her I love her, weep in her lap, unashamed of showing my feelings, because they were always there even though I hid them." (p. 139)

Why is it that we are afraid to simply reveal who we really are until we are faced with the prospect of dying?

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Early excerpts

Here are some excerpts from the introduction of the latest book I've picked up. The link at the end of this post will reveal the title. See if you can figure it out.
"The difference [between survivors and vicitms] is simple but profound. Vicitims focus on what they cannot change. Survivors focus on what they can change." (p. 13)
"The culminating stage of Second Adulthood I call the Age of Integrity. It is primarily a stage of spiritual growth. Instead of trying to maximize our control over our environment -- a goal that was perfectly appropriate to the earlier Age of Mastery -- now we must cultivate greater appreciation and acceptance of that which we cannot control.
Some of the losses of this stage are inconsoloable losses. To accept them without bitterness usually requires making a greater effort to discern the universal intelligence or spiritual force that is operating behind the changes we now notice almost daily. Rather than focus on time running out, it should be a daily exercise in the third age to make the moment count. Each moment is like a snowflake -- unique, unspoiled, unrepeatable -- and can be appreciated in its surprisingness." (p. 15)
Any idea about the topic? Think about it, then go here to find out more.

Monday, September 04, 2006

The Accidental Buddhist: Part 2

Ironically, Moore's quest become Buddhist is not accidental as the title would imply. Still, there are many noteworthy concepts and references worth considering for outsiders such as myself.

Foremost to me is the notion of monkey mind, or the inability to quiet the voices in one's head, which is quite normal. My knee-jerk reaction is Thank goodness! I was beginning to wonder if my wandering mind was a symptom of insanity. But Buddhists believe that the key to happiness is to be mindful of the present and the world around us as it is. To neglect that, the here and now, is wasteful.

What I don't quite understand, however, is how does one plan for a future in which the present is filled with elements that ease our contentment? To traipse through life without a purpose or future goals must certainly be unmindful and perhaps disrespectful of our present state. Perhaps I am considering the materialistic, worldly things, even if it doesn't seem like I am. Afterall, I have kids, and I would like to prepare them well for adulthood. I will grow old, and I'd rather not forget to save for retirement. It just seems that being mindful of the future is pretty darn important as well, and I wonder how Buddhists address this.

On the flip side of this question is how does one meaningfully reflect on the past in order to make the present life happier as well? Certainly it is foolish to neglect our mistakes and repeat them. Here is an example near and dear to my heart. If a child dies because he is not wearing a bicycle helmet, wouldn't it seem mindful to reflect on that and encourage all children to wear bicycle helmets? Being in the present moment means to be reflective and appreciative of the now and present; but the way I see it, it is also to be reflective of the past and future, for these elements help shape our present.

In retrospect, (is retrospection mindful?) I reckon that present mindfulness is one of those Buddhist koans in and of itself.

Of course present mindfulness makes more sense when you consider the notion of nonduality or the interconnectedness of everyone and everything. Moore writes
"When you perceive a flower, a cat, your bother-in-law Ed, that being you perceive exists at that moment in your mind. Buddhists believe that what exists in your mind is reality, that it is not just a reflection of reality, so if reality exists in your mind, then everything that is part of reality is part of you." (p. 126)
Um. . . Okay, I still have to reflect on this one a bit, and I cannot quite decide if that makes me mindful or not. I am not trying to be disrespectful or difficult, this is just plain hard for my feeble mind to grasp at this moment. Perhaps by being more mindful I can grow to understand this better.

Finally, Moore does mention one book, The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying by Sogyal Rinpoche (p.172) that I would to take a look at one of these days.

The bottom line about The Accidental Buddhist is that I enjoyed it and recommend it, even if I am slightly more confused today than I was before reading it. That work, family and life seemed to interfere with my finishing this book very quickly suggests that perhaps I have been taking in some of Moore's advice. In Buddhist terms, that might be a good thing.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

The Accidental Buddhist

I stumbled on Moore's book during a delicious quest through Barnes & Nobel one Friday evening last May. But The Accidental Buddhist by Dinty W. Moore sat on my night stand for most of the summer waiting patiently for it's time to come. Why did I pick this one up? There are a few reasons, one of them being that there seem to be quite a few Buddhist bloggers out there. But there are other reasons as well.

Over the last several years, I have found myself in the midst of more than one American Buddhist, the most notable one being the hockey mom whose husband, the cruise line piano tuner (and I tell you his profession only because I think it is a rather unusual and cool one), claimed she could meditate for hours. That notion fascinated me and also explained why we rarely saw her at the ice rink.

There is also my wonderful travel experience several years ago, when I had the pleasure of spending a few days in Narita, Japan where one can find the beautiful Naritasan Shinshoji Temple. This temple, which was founded in 914, is simply a magical complex where people bring prayers and incense to the gardens. It is a place that I would absolutely re-visit given the chance. (On a Google search, I was able to find one blog with lovely pictures that help illustrate what I mean.)

Finally, one of the regular field trips from my school is to a Buddhist temple in the city. One of these years I would like to con my way into going with that group, for I am really too shy to make my own visit there.

Though only still in the first third of Moore's narrative, I am drawn to his regular-guy voice, and I can tell that this book will give me a decent overview of what Buddhism is all about. Chapter 5, playfully titled "Why do Tibetans have such trouble with their vacuum cleaners? They have no attachments", explains that there are three main categories of American Buddhism: Zen, Theravada and Tibetan.

Here is a quote:
". . . Geshe-la is explaining that the source of our problems is our human weekness, and that weakness is our tendency to become attached. Attached to all manner of things.

Geshe-la explains it this way:

Though we often tend to blame them, it is not the external things like families, jobs or money that create problems for us in our lives. Rather, what actually makes us unhappy is our tendency to desire that these things bring us happiness. This expectation that family, job, money, a new car, whatever, will make us happy is what binds us and causes our discontent."
(p. 42)

That sounds to me very much like the notion that attitude is everything when it comes to finding happiness. I guess Buddhism must be as much a state-of-mind as anything else.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Great Green Book of Garden Secrets

Once upon a time, I was an avid gardener with a lush and verdent eden in my backyard. This coupled with the fact that I came from a long line of farmers/gardeners inspired my grandmother to send me this book several years ago. The gardening wisdom of Master Gardener Jerry Baker comes across like those schmaltzy As Seen on TV products, but my grandmother and her husband swore by his tips and remedies, which was always good enough for me.

These days my family lives on a larger property with too much clay soil, not enough shade, and dogs. Additionally, our region is still trying to recover from drought, and I no longer have the long, lazy days of being an at-home mom that are perfect for quality gardening time. Keeping up has proven especially daunting the past few summers. So . . . the bottom line is that our yard looks like crap, and I try not to think about what the neighbors must say behind our backs.

Yesterday turned out to be a great day for yard work, perhaps the best one all summer. I pulled weeds. The man mowed. I amended the soil in the evening, and then used one of Jerry Baker's tonics to top it off. Mixing any one of Baker's tonics is kitchen chemistry that always seems to inspire curious comments from my kids and their friends. These concotions use ingredients like sweet cola, beer, ammonia, molasses, instant tea, dish soap, whisky, and tobacco juice. As odd as any of his mixtures seem, they usually produce positive results, though I haven't figured out whether the results are real or placebo effect.

Here is the tonic I used yesterday:

All-Season Clean-Up Tonic

1 cup of Palmolive dish soap,
1 cup of Listerine, and
1 cup of chewing tobacco tea*
Mix all of the ingredients in a bucket, and pour into your 20 gallon hose-end sprayer. Apply to everything in your yard to the point or run-off every 3 weeks, in the morning, throughout the growing season.

Mix all of the ingredients in your 20 gallon hose-end sprayer, filling the balance of the sprayer jar with warm water. Apply to your entire yard to the point of run-off every 2 weeks, in the evening, to discourage insects and prevent disease.

*Chewing Tobacco Tea

* To make tobacco tea, place half a handful of chewing tobacco in an old nylon stocking and soak it in a gallon of hot water until the mixture is dark brown.
(Yes, I puchased chewing tobacco for the first time in my life yesterday too!)

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Guts

What does a dead man look like? How do planes crash? What are some things that really hurt? What's the best way to make a bow and arrow that you can really hunt with? How hungry do you have to be to suck on a fish head or snapping turtle eggs?

Gary Paulsen, the author of Hatchet, The River and other survival novels shares the true stories and learned wisdom that inspired him to write. While Paulsen's books are considered young adult literature, his works can be fascinating for grown-ups as well. I find Guts and excellent quick read that sparks the imagination.

Connections: Owning Your Own Shadow

It has been several days since my man has informed me about the impending divorce of a couple we have known for the last twenty years. She has worked with my man for that long. They are buddies. I guess the path to divorce started with a keypad program she installed on their computer so she could monitor their teenagers' chatroom activities. Little did she know that it would also reveal his activities, despite the fact that he was in the know about the spying. There is much more to the story, but what I have to say and how this affects me has everything to do with the concept of projection, which is discussed in Owning Your Own Shadow.

You see, whenever this sort of break-up happens to other couples, my man feels a strong affiliation with the jaded spouse and makes assumptions that I might be moving along the path of the wrong-doer. I really hate being forced into that role. This kind of projection has happened several times before, and of course, it happened again earlier this week. Trust me when I say that it is a tough job figuring out how to defend yourself against such projections, because for some reason, it makes matters worse. It is difficult when you love someone and they make negative assumptions about you regularly.

But what is especially difficult this time around is that I have really been fighting a depression all summer long, a depression that he is impervious to. He is so happy-go-lucky. His life is so perfect for him, that he doesn't seem to care about my thoughts or whatever turmoil roils within me. Either that or he is blind to the inner me.

As I read this book, there is much talk about shadows. A shadow is the part of us that we hide from others, from others, from the community. Why do we keep secret thoughts and secret lives? According to Johnson, it is simply for survival. To reveal the side of ourselves that is incongruent with the way the community (or the family in my case) thinks or believes can cause too much instability that it threatens us. There is nothing wrong with the shadow. We all have one. However, when the shadow grows too large, it steeps into our more outward lives.

The bottom line is that at some point, we cannot contain our shadows.

Johnson also talks about how there is gold in the shadow, and that we can use it to improve ourselves. I am still working on how to apply that to my own life.

Last night, I had a disturbing dream. I am not sure how much of it I am willing to divulge here. Johnson contends that we need to pay attention to such dreams. At this moment, I am not so sure how.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Bumper stickers

My mother, a good Texas Democrat, recently sent this to me via email. Presently, there are no bumper stickers on my car. As time marches onward, however, I am beginning to really wish I had some of these, especially given how tired I am of the prevailing right-wing sentiment in my community. You could say that I am experiencing my own revolution.

"These bumper stickers were compiled by Jerry Paull, a former Methodist minister in Lakeside, Ohio, who writes: 'The following actual bumper stickers are now on cars. I didn't write any of them. I'm only the messenger. If they make you laugh, good. If they make you cry, good.'"

AT LEAST IN VIETNAM, BUSH HAD AN EXIT STRATEGY

BLIND FAITH IN BAD LEADERSHIP IS NOT PATRIOTISM

IF YOU'RE NOT OUTRAGED, YOU'RE NOT PAYING ATTENTION

IF YOU SUPPORTED BUSH, A YELLOW RIBBON WON'T MAKE UP FOR IT

POVERTY, HEALTHCARE & HOMELESSNESS ARE MORAL ISSUES

BUSH LIED, AND YOU KNOW IT

RELIGIOUS FUNDAMENTALISM: A THREAT ABROAD, A THREAT AT HOME

GOD BLESS EVERYONE (No exceptions)

BUSH SPENT YOUR SOCIAL SECURITY ON HIS WAR

PRO AMERICA, ANTI BUSH

WHO WOULD JESUS BOMB?

FEEL SAFER NOW?

I'D RATHER HAVE A PRESIDENT WHO SCREWED HIS INTERN THAN ONE WHO SCREWED HIS COUNTRY

JESUS WAS A SOCIAL ACTIVIST - THAT IS A LIBERAL

MY VALUES? FREE SPEECH. EQUALITY. LIBERTY. EDUCATION. TOLERANCE

IS IT 2008 YET?

DISSENT IS THE HIGHEST FORM OF PATRIOTISM
--- Thomas Jefferson

DON'T BLAME ME. I VOTED AGAINST BUSH -- TWICE!

ANNOY A CONSERVATIVE; THINK FOR YOURSELF

VISUALIZE IMPEACHMENT

STOP MAD COWBOY DISEASE

GEORGE W. BUSH: MAKING TERRORISTS FASTER THAN HE CAN KILL THEM

DEMOCRATS ARE SEXY. WHOEVER HEARD OF A GOOD PIECE OF ELEPHANT?

ASPIRING CANADIAN

DON'T CONFUSE DYING FOR OIL WITH FIGHTING FOR FREEDOM

HATE, GREED, IGNORANCE: WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION

HONOR OUR TROOPS; DEMAND THE TRUTH

REBUILD IRAQ? WHY NOT SPEND 87 BILLION ON AMERICA?

FACT: BUSH OIL
1999 - $19 BARREL
2006 - $70 BARREL

THE LAST TIME RELIGION CONTROLLED POLITICS, PEOPLE GOT BURNED AT THE STAKE

CTI Student Manual

It dawned on me late last week during my Taekwondo classs that it was time to purchase the Student Manual. I'd been working on my latest poomse, taegeuk il chang, and my instructor, Mr. A mentioned something about the three lines pattern of movement. It thus was obvious that I was neglecting my studies.

Last night, I purchased the manual before class, and before going to bed, I spent some time reading it. I mostly read about the history of martial arts -- that they originated in China, Korea and Japan -- and that Taekwondo can be traced through three dynasties to as early as 37 BC. Though practiced for thousands of years, the name Taekwondo was not defined for this version of martial arts until 1955. Here are some other new things that give TKD a little more meaning to me:

  • Taekwondo is "the Korean art of smashing with the bare feet and hands."

    Thought: Smashing things was not my motivation for signing up for TKD. What attracted me to the artform was the beautiful movements of the poomse. Still, I am beginning to think that breaking a board is not impossible for me. What I continue to enjoy about TKD is the rigorous workout coupled with the disciplinary expectation and mental concentration.
  • Moo Sul Kwan means "martial arts school"

    Thought: My son and his friends have mentioned a desire to learn Moo Sul Kwan style Taekwondo. The next time they bring it up, I will share this piece of translation.
  • Taegeuk il chang has 16 counts and should last 16 seconds. It stands for "the force that is in living things. Originating, correct, advantageous, and firm."

    Thought: What I like about practicing poomse is the feeling of focus and centeredness. I like that there is symbolism to the form. I had not been practicing it with a clearly defined idea. I will have to keep these words in mind from now on.
  • Thursday, August 03, 2006

    I Have Lived A Thousand Years

    My previous post on Forgotten Fire reminds me of this memoir-esque novel, written by Livia Bitton-Jackson, who was a survivor of Auschwitz.

    Thirteen year-old Elli Friedman recounts her life as a victim of the Nazi persecution of Jews during the 1940s and how she and her mother survive despite unthinkable horrors. The reader watches as Elli's life changes from having typical teenage worries about school and boys to learning how to adapt to life as a prisoner denied her human rights. In a nutshell, this book is, as the author states in the forward, about never giving up.

    One message that Bitton-Jackson seems to hone in on throughout this work centers around the concept of identity. She suggests that individuality and diversity are fundamental human rights. Her observation is that those prisoners who allowed their identities to be completely stripped away were the ones who were least likely to survive the concentration camps.

    Sometimes when I hear the English-only or anti-gay marriage political rhetoric, I cannot help but wonder if this lack of tolerence for linguistic and social diversity somehow falls into this same mindset trap that motivated the greater German attitude during that era. I don't know if this notion is appropriate or not given the gravity of the historical events that transpired. You tell me.

    Wednesday, August 02, 2006

    Forgotten Fire

    "Who does now remember the Armenians?" -- Adolph Hitler

    These are the ominous, evil words which proceed Adam Bagdasarian's adolescent historical novel based on the experiences of his great-uncle who was a survivor of the Armenian holocaust of Turkey in 1915-1916. It was with these words that Hitler sought to justify his plan to elminate the Jews.

    And so I ask, "Do you remember?"

    When I was a child, my mother would encourage my sister and me to finish our supper. She would say to us, "Eat up! There are children starving in Armenia!" I never gave those words much thought until I read this moving story about a boy named Vahan and how his indomitable spirit keeps him alive even after witnessing the horrible deaths of the beloved members of his family and during his exodous from Turkey. This work is definitely an eye-opener, especially when the reader digs for more historical information and learns that even today that the Turkish government does not acknowledge the murder of over 1.5 million Christian Armenians during this dark period and that even the British government refused to recognize it early in the twenty-first century.

    Curious for more information? Go here, here, here, and here.

    Tuesday, August 01, 2006

    Initial impression: Owning Your Own Shadow

    I recently picked up this one, so I am by no means finished with it. One thing that stands out to me is that Johnson's perspective on psychology comes across as deeply rooted in Christianity, which really challenges my personal bias for the moment. Several years ago, this would not have bothered me so much, but I am mentally weary from the right-wing political Christian perspective constantly being shoved down my throat.

    Still, I am open enough to give this book the good old college try. This work is divided into three parts: 1. The Shadow, 2. Romantic Love as Shadow, and 3. The Mandorla.

    So, what is the shadow? Johnson introduces his brief work by stating that it is . . .
    ". . . what we would like to be and how we wish to be seen by the world. It is our psychological clothing and it mediates between our true selves and our environment just as our physical clothing presents an image to those we meet." (p. 3)

    As with other books of this genre (psychology), the first thing I did was flip through to the parts that might be most relevant to me today. Here is an excerpt that stands out:
    "To fall in love is the project the most noble and infinitely valuable part of one's being onto another human being, though sometimes under rare circumstances it may be projected onto something other than a human. . . . . . Romantic love, or falling in love, is different from loving, which is always a quieter and more humanly proportioned experience. There is always something overblown and bigger-than-life about falling in love." (p. 61-62)
    I like the way Johnson differentiates between the two experiences as being distinct from one another. Still, I cannot help but think that being in love usually begins with falling in love, so I am wondering how he addresses the melding of the two.

    Also, I have yet to learn what the heck a Mandorla is, so I am somewhat curious.

    Touching Spirit Bear

    Touching Spirit Bear explores the concept of wilderness survival as a form of punishment that leads toward the path of healing.

    Sixteen-year-old Cole is banished to a remote Alaskan island where he will spend a year alone as a consequence for the brutal beating of a classmate. Enraged that he has no recourse but to serve this Circle Justice, Cole defiantly burns his supplies before trying to escape. Of course he is stuck there, and eventually he meets up with a spirit bear that mauls him. On the edge of death, Cole realizes that his ability to survive in the civilized world is somehow connected to his ability to survive alone on this island.

    This is one of my favorite teen lit books. The accessible elements in this work that might connect to a child's schema include divorce, a parent with alcoholism, bad-boy outcast, last-chance with the law, and dealing with social services. Bringing in Native American culture as a way to work around these problems is an intriguing concept that has hooked more than one ambivalent child and transformed him into a reader.

    Sunday, July 30, 2006

    Eleven Minutes

    According to Maria, if you subtract all of the extra conversation, undressing and getting back dressed again, the actual amount of time it takes to have sex is only eleven minutes. And for that, she is perplexed as to why people revolve their worlds around the act and actively aspire to ever marry. Eleven Minutes is the story of one woman's slow journey to discovering the spiritual, sacred side of sex in spite of her hard knocks and cynicism.

    A Brazilian woman working as a prostitute in Switzerland, Maria is determined to one day return to her motherland to settle down and buy a farm. One day while reading a book about raising cattle in a local café, a famous painter asks Maria if he can paint her portrait.

    Schmaltzy? Yeah, I know it sounds that way. But I love Maria's self-reflection. Shortly after this encounter she writes in her diary:

    "Passion makes a person stop eating, sleeping, working, feeling at peace. A lot of people are frightened because, when it appears, it demolishes all the old things it finds in its path.

    No one wants their life thrown into chaos. That is why a lot of people keep that threat under control, and are somehow capable of sustaining a house or a structure that is already rotten. They are the engineers of the superseded.

    Other people think exactly the opposite: they surrender themselves withouth a second thought, hoping to find in passion the solutions to all their problems. They make the other person responsible for their happiness and blame them for their possible unhappiness. They are either euphoric because something marvelous has happened or depressed because something unexpected has just ruined everything.

    Keeping passion at bay or surrendering blindly to it--which of these two attitudes is the least destructive?

    I don't know."
    (pp. 119-120)

    Coelho's Maria, like so many of the characters of his other tales, dives into the struggles of the human psyche in a way that I can relate.

    Saturday, July 29, 2006

    A bit about Feed

    Feed by M.T. Anderson is one of my favorite adolescent novels. I first read it a couple of years ago; but as time progresses, I think it holds increasing relevance. It is set in the future when most Americans stay connected through a feed brain implant. As you can probably imagine, all one has to do is think about something and voila the thoughts are tagged with a plethora of related links and advertisements.

    In one scene, the narrator, Titus is out mall shopping with his girlfriend, Violet. A rebel deep down, Violet talks about an experiment she has been conducting.

    "Listen," she said. "What I'm doing, what I've been doing over the feed for the last two days, is trying to create a customer profile that's so screwed, no one can market to it. I'm not going to let them catalog me. I'm going to become invisible."

    I stared at her for a minute. She ran her finger along the edge of my collar, so her nail touched the skin of my throat. I waited for an explanation. She didn't tell me any more, but she said to come with her, and she grabbed one of the nodules on my shirt--it was one of those nodule shirts--and she led me toward Bebrekker & Karl.

    We went into the store, and immediately our feeds were all completely Bebrekker & Kar. We were bannered all this crazy high-tech fun stuff they sold there. Then a guy walked up to us and said could he help us. I said I didn't know. But Violet was like, "Sure. Do you have those big searchlights? I mean, the really strong ones?"

    "Yeah," he said. "We have . . . yeah. We have those." (p. 81)

    Titus and Violet go from store to store asking about various "weird shit" (p. 83), but buying nothing. While looking at home endoscopy kits, she says,
    "For the last two days, okay? I've been earmarking all this different stuff as if I want to buy it--you know, a pennywhistle, a barrel of institutional lard, some really cheesy boy-pop, a sarong, an industrial lawn mower, all of this information on male pattern baldness, business stationery, barrettes . . . And I've been looking up house painting for the Antartic homeowner, and the way people get married in Tonga, and genealogy home pages in the Czech Republic . . . I don't know, it's all out there waiting."

    I picked up one box. "This one is the cheaptest. You swallow the pills and they take pictures as they go down."

    She said, "Once you start looking at all this stuff, all of these sites, you realize this obscure stuff isn't obscure at all. Each thing is like a whole world. I can't tell you.
    (p. 84)

    I will probably have more to say about Feed in future posts. In today's society, I cannot help but recall the biting social commentaries Anderson so deftly implies, and I especially love his use of language to seal his perspective.

    Friday, July 28, 2006

    Kiffe Kiffe Tomorrow

    Now that her father, the Beard, has returned to Morocco to find a new wife to bear him a son, Doria and her mother are left with little more than each other. Faïza Guène shares what it is like to grow up in the ghettos of Paris as the child of Maghrebian immigrants.

    I just finished this debut, semi-autobiographical novel, and I love Doria's teenage voice. It is filled with a divine mix of adolescent sass, insecurity, astute observation, hope and resignation.

    That Guène wrote this piece when she was only fifteen impresses the hell out of me.

    Good Books

    Outside of a dog,
    a book is a man's best friend.

    Inside a dog,
    it's too dark to read


    -- Groucho Marx

    Don't forget that a book can be a girl's best friend too.